Thank you all for your well wishes. I'm doing better and still have some feelings to work out. but I still feel for my mom and aunt as they are still clearing out her house and squaring away with final actions on her behalf. Funeral was a mixed bag as some people are awful and loove to make things about themselves at the worst times.
Good news though, the lead position that I thought I got rejected for, well I got a call in today to come in thursday for an interview! I hope for the best; I've outgrown my part time job and its pay isn't helping much anymore, so fingers crossed.