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Hello! Obviously, I don't really post on any forums that much anymore. I occasionally lurk but that's about it. I just had a recent life change happen that explains a lot in my life that I've struggled with and couldn't understand why. To back track, I went on mental health leave from my job in December. I was unraveling fast mentally and couldn't be there anymore. I started doing Instacart full time while I was on leave and that's become my primary source of income now. I formally left my job in February. Anyway, during all that I started seeing a therapist to and get an actual diagnosis outside of I'm just depressed/anxious. After a lot of talking and testing, I've been diagnosed with autism. It's obviously of the high functioning variety, but it greatly impacts my social skills, communication and being self righteous about my ways being right. Who knows, maybe if I had this diagnosis much earlier in life I wouldn't have made as many social mistakes and been such an asshole at times. Sometimes I couldn't even understand why I did the things I did, but turns out I'm literally autistic. ????? It's been fascinating thinking back on my life with this new perspective and trying to figure out what moments my autism actually played a role in. Anyway, don't expect me to be around a lot more suddenly, I just thought I'd share this update as I'm more than positive this newly learned about trait of mine impacted my behavior online in many ways, starting with people here. That doesn't forgive my actions and behaviors, but maybe gives new insight to them instead. Ok that's all!

Something involving video production, ideally editing. I've always been interested and dabbled before but never went into it in too much detail. You know I've been desperate for a career change for years but nothing really appealed enough to kick me into action. Just came to me a few months ago, I've done a bit of reading in what is available in terms of work and study, my plan right now is: - Get badass PC (done). - Start making short films and edits in my spare time (begins today!) - Enrol in a night class (enrolled for August already). - If I take to it and I'm this motivated by the end of the year, I'll apply for the full-time 2 year TV production course which covers everything - direction, editing, production, sound production, etc. Giving me the best base to find a career at the end of it. Scary stuff, I might get to the end of the year and decide it's nothing more than a hobby but that's my aim right now. I'm deeply, deeply unhappy with my career.

Also, one of my favorite scenes :

We had less mead in the house when we were brewing mead. That's a lot of mead.

If we did that, I'm pretty sure her parents and sister would never come visit us ever again...

I’m so fucking hyped by this