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Hello! Obviously, I don't really post on any forums that much anymore. I occasionally lurk but that's about it. I just had a recent life change happen that explains a lot in my life that I've struggled with and couldn't understand why. To back track, I went on mental health leave from my job in December. I was unraveling fast mentally and couldn't be there anymore. I started doing Instacart full time while I was on leave and that's become my primary source of income now. I formally left my job in February. Anyway, during all that I started seeing a therapist to and get an actual diagnosis outside of I'm just depressed/anxious. After a lot of talking and testing, I've been diagnosed with autism. It's obviously of the high functioning variety, but it greatly impacts my social skills, communication and being self righteous about my ways being right. Who knows, maybe if I had this diagnosis much earlier in life I wouldn't have made as many social mistakes and been such an asshole at times. Sometimes I couldn't even understand why I did the things I did, but turns out I'm literally autistic. ????? It's been fascinating thinking back on my life with this new perspective and trying to figure out what moments my autism actually played a role in. Anyway, don't expect me to be around a lot more suddenly, I just thought I'd share this update as I'm more than positive this newly learned about trait of mine impacted my behavior online in many ways, starting with people here. That doesn't forgive my actions and behaviors, but maybe gives new insight to them instead. Ok that's all!

Something involving video production, ideally editing. I've always been interested and dabbled before but never went into it in too much detail. You know I've been desperate for a career change for years but nothing really appealed enough to kick me into action. Just came to me a few months ago, I've done a bit of reading in what is available in terms of work and study, my plan right now is: - Get badass PC (done). - Start making short films and edits in my spare time (begins today!) - Enrol in a night class (enrolled for August already). - If I take to it and I'm this motivated by the end of the year, I'll apply for the full-time 2 year TV production course which covers everything - direction, editing, production, sound production, etc. Giving me the best base to find a career at the end of it. Scary stuff, I might get to the end of the year and decide it's nothing more than a hobby but that's my aim right now. I'm deeply, deeply unhappy with my career.

Legit think Webhead would fistfight someone who has both a PC and an Xbox

I trust this group to behave and just... talk. I'll be around more to help you, wab you just gotta a) remind me sometimes because i just forget things and b) LIVE STREAM THE GODDAMN EGG EATING IT'S BEEN LONG ENOUGH AND YOU FUCKING PROMISED

So Apparently my parents surprised us with a new 55" in TV. So that was a highlight.

Update: Thanks @Anelle for finally helping this end! Oh also @Garlic Junior do please stick around and help mod. Truth be told I don't think I'm going to quite have the same "cut it off" sensibilities than y'all do so I want to put others in charge of enforcing. That said, yeah, I think it will probably be fine all on its own.

If we're gonna do it you think we can just do a topic or two and just keep it there? I think people would rather it not branch out into every topic.

This is probably my most wanted game right now... feels like the first huge improvement in gameplay and physics interactions in gaming since HL2 probably. Can't wait for June!

It's going to fail. The Matrix capitalized on the infancy of the internet (1999 and all) and played into a those simulation conspiracy theories that have been around for ages. Mix in Woo-Ping stunt coordination and ground breaking camera work (that became so overused since that it's virtually cheesy now) and what do they have left to try? It's been too long, things have changed too much. Dressing like The Matrix is lame now. The music in The Matrix isn't exactly popular anymore. They are going to have to change everything about it of they want it to feel modern enough to not be a Dad dressed in a KoRn T-Shirt with a chain wallet and spiky hair. IF I WAS THEM... I would make this movie extremely meta based. I would have the movie star Keanu as Keanu and Carrie as Carrie. They play themselves in The Matrix. Something happened and they were re-inserted with new lives. Their lives are what they are in real life right now. Pretty much exactly what Cipher wanted in the first movie. It turns out Keanu is really Neo and Carrie is really Trinity but they forgot, except for when they keep experiencing Deja Vu. The Matrix is a real movie in this movie and it was used by the machines to help dispel any reasons they might have lingering memories, it's just memories of making a movie and not a real life. Of course, Keanu and Carrie start to wake up again and see the world for what it really is - a crazy ass simulation. It plays into the world today with how insane everything is that it has to be made up by machines. It plays into ideas introduced in the first Matrix movie and it washes away being forced to recapture how the first three movies felt with a legit reason do they don't have to do lame shiny leather outfits again. It would be someone to play a role of a conspiracy nut that stalks Keanu and tells him that he believes he really is Neo and the movies aren't just make believe. He's really Mr.Anderson and everything in the movies actually happened. Keanu ignores him, of course, but it creates a mental crack in the machines false world for him that unravels through the movie.

Toru Yano is the best