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I came out a few weeks ago on Facebook as trans but still didn't bother to make a similar declaration here as well. So yeah, this is it. It's been about 6 months or so since I made this actual decision, and came out slowly to a few friends and family I knew wouldn't react negatively, until finally making it known to the world at large (at least my little section of it) on Facebook two weeks ago. I'm still not out at work, and am still not presenting female all of the time. I've changed my name/pronouns on Facebook, so don't be afraid to use those! This coming Tuesday i'm going to see a doctor and hopefully start hormone treatment. Other than that, and the fact that i'm growing my hair out, I don't really know what the fuck i'm doing in regards to my transition specifically. It's a slow process, but it's an ongoing one. Here's the letter I sent out to people better explaining where i'm coming from if anyone cares to read it. Also, here's a pic from last week. The hair is (obviously) a wig, but i'd absolutely love to have my actual hair at a similar length. So yeah, there's my story.

Hello! Obviously, I don't really post on any forums that much anymore. I occasionally lurk but that's about it. I just had a recent life change happen that explains a lot in my life that I've struggled with and couldn't understand why. To back track, I went on mental health leave from my job in December. I was unraveling fast mentally and couldn't be there anymore. I started doing Instacart full time while I was on leave and that's become my primary source of income now. I formally left my job in February. Anyway, during all that I started seeing a therapist to and get an actual diagnosis outside of I'm just depressed/anxious. After a lot of talking and testing, I've been diagnosed with autism. It's obviously of the high functioning variety, but it greatly impacts my social skills, communication and being self righteous about my ways being right. Who knows, maybe if I had this diagnosis much earlier in life I wouldn't have made as many social mistakes and been such an asshole at times. Sometimes I couldn't even understand why I did the things I did, but turns out I'm literally autistic. ????? It's been fascinating thinking back on my life with this new perspective and trying to figure out what moments my autism actually played a role in. Anyway, don't expect me to be around a lot more suddenly, I just thought I'd share this update as I'm more than positive this newly learned about trait of mine impacted my behavior online in many ways, starting with people here. That doesn't forgive my actions and behaviors, but maybe gives new insight to them instead. Ok that's all!

Something involving video production, ideally editing. I've always been interested and dabbled before but never went into it in too much detail. You know I've been desperate for a career change for years but nothing really appealed enough to kick me into action. Just came to me a few months ago, I've done a bit of reading in what is available in terms of work and study, my plan right now is: - Get badass PC (done). - Start making short films and edits in my spare time (begins today!) - Enrol in a night class (enrolled for August already). - If I take to it and I'm this motivated by the end of the year, I'll apply for the full-time 2 year TV production course which covers everything - direction, editing, production, sound production, etc. Giving me the best base to find a career at the end of it. Scary stuff, I might get to the end of the year and decide it's nothing more than a hobby but that's my aim right now. I'm deeply, deeply unhappy with my career.

LEARN TO READ, WAB

At least Morbius being more heroic makes some kinda sense as he isn't really a villain in the comics. Kraven is a cold heartless killer with an adrenaline addiction. Nothing about that says "heroic"

*sips glass of ice cold sweet tea* Problem?

It's going to fail. The Matrix capitalized on the infancy of the internet (1999 and all) and played into a those simulation conspiracy theories that have been around for ages. Mix in Woo-Ping stunt coordination and ground breaking camera work (that became so overused since that it's virtually cheesy now) and what do they have left to try? It's been too long, things have changed too much. Dressing like The Matrix is lame now. The music in The Matrix isn't exactly popular anymore. They are going to have to change everything about it of they want it to feel modern enough to not be a Dad dressed in a KoRn T-Shirt with a chain wallet and spiky hair. IF I WAS THEM... I would make this movie extremely meta based. I would have the movie star Keanu as Keanu and Carrie as Carrie. They play themselves in The Matrix. Something happened and they were re-inserted with new lives. Their lives are what they are in real life right now. Pretty much exactly what Cipher wanted in the first movie. It turns out Keanu is really Neo and Carrie is really Trinity but they forgot, except for when they keep experiencing Deja Vu. The Matrix is a real movie in this movie and it was used by the machines to help dispel any reasons they might have lingering memories, it's just memories of making a movie and not a real life. Of course, Keanu and Carrie start to wake up again and see the world for what it really is - a crazy ass simulation. It plays into the world today with how insane everything is that it has to be made up by machines. It plays into ideas introduced in the first Matrix movie and it washes away being forced to recapture how the first three movies felt with a legit reason do they don't have to do lame shiny leather outfits again. It would be someone to play a role of a conspiracy nut that stalks Keanu and tells him that he believes he really is Neo and the movies aren't just make believe. He's really Mr.Anderson and everything in the movies actually happened. Keanu ignores him, of course, but it creates a mental crack in the machines false world for him that unravels through the movie.

I'm hearing it'll still be at Full Sail for the time being, which is nice I suppose.

Being a huge fan of pre-disney star wars i have an issue but i am able to put that aside for what looks like it could be a fun game. I feel like this mission is called "Everything is bigger on Kashyyk" I like how they took hardcore parkour and said "what if you could add the force to it?" The combat looks solid and fun. My only issue with the combat is if he's swinging his lightsaber around like that there'd be limbs flying. Otherwise combat looks fun. My issue... he is exhibiting an ability to control the force to an EXTREME degree. Stopping that rotating thing near the end to walk across probably should not have been that easy... being said with how much control of the force he is showing he should have been able to jump that gap. Also throwing a lightsaber is not an easy thing. Most lightsabers were built with a safety feature that the activation is not a simple on/off you have to keep pressure on the button therwise it shuts off. So throwing it you have to use the force to keep the button depressed during the throw. Like i said though, i'm a pre-disney fan so... fuck disney ruining SW (yes i'm salty) Good on this studio for presenting something that looks pretty solid. I am cautiously optimisti