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Hello! Obviously, I don't really post on any forums that much anymore. I occasionally lurk but that's about it. I just had a recent life change happen that explains a lot in my life that I've struggled with and couldn't understand why. To back track, I went on mental health leave from my job in December. I was unraveling fast mentally and couldn't be there anymore. I started doing Instacart full time while I was on leave and that's become my primary source of income now. I formally left my job in February. Anyway, during all that I started seeing a therapist to and get an actual diagnosis outside of I'm just depressed/anxious. After a lot of talking and testing, I've been diagnosed with autism. It's obviously of the high functioning variety, but it greatly impacts my social skills, communication and being self righteous about my ways being right. Who knows, maybe if I had this diagnosis much earlier in life I wouldn't have made as many social mistakes and been such an asshole at times. Sometimes I couldn't even understand why I did the things I did, but turns out I'm literally autistic. ????? It's been fascinating thinking back on my life with this new perspective and trying to figure out what moments my autism actually played a role in. Anyway, don't expect me to be around a lot more suddenly, I just thought I'd share this update as I'm more than positive this newly learned about trait of mine impacted my behavior online in many ways, starting with people here. That doesn't forgive my actions and behaviors, but maybe gives new insight to them instead. Ok that's all!

Something involving video production, ideally editing. I've always been interested and dabbled before but never went into it in too much detail. You know I've been desperate for a career change for years but nothing really appealed enough to kick me into action. Just came to me a few months ago, I've done a bit of reading in what is available in terms of work and study, my plan right now is: - Get badass PC (done). - Start making short films and edits in my spare time (begins today!) - Enrol in a night class (enrolled for August already). - If I take to it and I'm this motivated by the end of the year, I'll apply for the full-time 2 year TV production course which covers everything - direction, editing, production, sound production, etc. Giving me the best base to find a career at the end of it. Scary stuff, I might get to the end of the year and decide it's nothing more than a hobby but that's my aim right now. I'm deeply, deeply unhappy with my career.

Legit think Webhead would fistfight someone who has both a PC and an Xbox

At least Morbius being more heroic makes some kinda sense as he isn't really a villain in the comics. Kraven is a cold heartless killer with an adrenaline addiction. Nothing about that says "heroic"

So Apparently my parents surprised us with a new 55" in TV. So that was a highlight.

Okay, redoing my original post since when I went to edit the first one it wouldn't let me type anything between the videos so I couldn't edit in spoiler tags. X_x Trailers: Mavel's Spider-man: Miles Morales GTAV/GTA Online moving to PS5 (also something about free game currency every month on PS4 until it releases I guess?) Project Athia (New Square-Enix thing using their fancy engine they never seem to be able to make a game on) Ratchet & Clank: Rift Apart Stray (Play as cat in world where humans are extinct and robots have replaced them? That's the impression I got anyway) Returnal (looks interesting despite 'Revengence' level of bad naming convention) Destruction Allstars (Destruction Derby meets Overwatch style game? I don't really know how to describe this otherwise) Sackboy: A Big Adventure Oddworld: Soulstorm Kena: Bridge of Spirits (might be neat) Goodbye Volcano High (dinosaur 'furry' drama... game... thing? ) Ghostwire: Tokyo (Been waiting to see gameplay for this. May have potential) Jett: The Far Shore (some kind of space colonization thing? No gameplay so hard to say what it will be) Godfall (Looked interesting when it revealed at the game awards, but seems straight forward and uninteresting in terms of gameplay. Will wait and see on this one) NBA 2K21 Gran Turismo 7 (It definitely appears to be Gran Turismo) Solar Ash (stylized artsy indy game looking thing. might be neat) Demon's Souls (remake I guess? Looks pretty) Resident Evil 8 (this was fun to watch because no idea what it was at first reminded me of when they revealed the 'Biohazard' one set in the house with the fucked up family) Deathloop (remember this from a Bethesda E3 thing. Actually looks like it has potential though also potentially frustrating) Little Devil Inside (might be cool. Not sure. Artsy looking thing but vague trailer confuses me about what its actually about) Hitman III (Hitman gonna hit) Astro's Playroom (This was bound to happen eventually I guess) Bugsnax (What in the actual fuck did I just watch?) Horizon: Forbidden West Hardware Reveal

Antonio Brown has skyrocketed the list as my least favorite NFL player.

I’m so fucking hyped by this